We are officially closed for the summer. Honestly I never thought this day would come. This year was like no other year. I have been in the education field for fourteen years but have never encountered a year like this one. There were days that were so long, endless and seemed as though time was lingering. It was hard to keep motivating my staff, it was hard to always be positive when I myself was in the dark!
Author: Dana Shuhaibar
Self Reflection
While working on schedules for Hybrid model for the upcoming new academic school year, I get a WhatsApp message from my principal asking “Would you mind doing a reflection for the bulletin this week?” Here I was a little bit confused and thought we had to write what we usually write and asked if that’s what she meant. Clearly I was wrong and she replied back with “ Not your usual. A reflection of your year. What did you enjoy about virtual school and what did you learn about yourself as a leader?” I quickly replied back with absolutely NOT and I got a thank you back. I lost all concentration on schedules and my mind started wondering about her two questions. I let it sink and thought about it a lot. I didn’t write anything down till the next day. I remember thinking about it before I fell asleep.
Next morning I got to the office and started typing away…
COVID19 – The Physical Aftermath!
On December 7th I wasn’t feeling like myself. I sneezed twice, coughed once, had 0 appetite and my body ached. Living during a pandemic I thought, uh-oh I got Covid, I need to get a PCR test. My husband and doctor both laughed at me and thought I was crazy for even thinking that! I ignored them and got a PCR taken regardless of what they thought. The wait killed me. I was sleeping and at 2:13 am, I received the message from the Ministry of Health saying that I was positive! I cried and was scared. Little did I know it was like a normal flu but a lot stronger with no taste and smell. I stopped exercising and isolated myself for 12 days in my bedroom away from my kids and husband. I got annoyed and frustrated as I was doing so well with my workouts. But I knew that I couldn’t change anything.
Measurement Day!
Measurement day was finally here… I was convinced and was sure my numbers were lower from last month! I was SURE my weight had changed. I woke up and got on the scale. I shut my eyes and was scared to look down! When I finally did I was in SHOCK. I wanted to scream and cry! I got off the scale and got back on to make sure what I saw was true. I did that three times! And all three times I saw the same number! I did NOT go down half a kilo, 1 kilo or 2 kilos! I WAS THE EXACT SAME weight I was when Ondrej last measured me! I was so MAD, annoyed name it… So I thought to myself ok this means my measurements would at least be down! I knew I had gained muscles but figured I’d be down in inches! I remember I had NO appetite for breakfast that day.
Covid-19 FITNESS JOURNEY!
Since Covid hit Kuwait on February 24th, I have increased my workouts and started watching my food carefully. March 1st schools shifted to Virtual learning which meant that I could manage my own schedule and fit my workouts between meetings. During the first week, it was difficult to sit in front of the screen all day in order to attend meetings one after the other as well as making sure both my children were completing their work. It was hard and rough.
Silver Linings of Covid-19!
I can thank Covid for slowing down time for us! I am thankful that it has made time for ourselves. Everything I had on hold and simply could not get to I managed to get through them while being locked down. Once school has ended, it was time to think of myself for the first time EVER! To finally put myself first and not everyone else around me like I usually do felt weird honestly speaking. I worked on myself mentally and physically. I thought to myself if I do not take this opportunity now, then I will never have this chance again and will regret it once and IF life goes back to normal. I started signing up for professional development workshops and conferences that would benefit me as a leader and in my personal life for the best version of me.
Below you will see what I have done and how I have taken every opportunity that came my way this summer.
My First Podcast!
Thanks to Twitter for increasing my circle of PLN (Personal Learning Network). One evening as I was watching TV I got a message from Dr. Ilene Alzaid, who invited me to be her guest on her podcast “Journeys To Belonging.” I read her message twice maybe three times. I was excited yet nervous! If you know me you know this is out of my comfort zone! I couldn’t believe it. I messaged back asking for more details about what I would be talking about and how it all worked. Very patiently, Dr. Illene answered all my questions and gave me more or less 3 topics to choose from. As you know, I picked my favorite topic which was speaking about my role as an AP. I would be discussing how I support my students and staff when it comes to belonging and what I do to try and bridge the gap between my International and local hires. We set the date and time and I began thinking of what I was going to speak about.
Virtual School- Week 3-8!
By week 3, I felt I had settled down into a routine with my work/meetings and my kids and their work. It was a bit easier I must admit. Week after week things got better and I was able to have some sort of an organized life. There were a few bumps here and there with new decisions from our Ministry of Education but we managed through. By then our teachers got used to the fact that things might change mid week and when we had a meeting they were expecting it.
Week 7 and 8 were the toughest. Tougher than week 1 and 2 for me. Teachers by then were exhausted, overwhelmed, tired and running on low energy and on very low patience. It was hard. They had to plan and re plan based on a new calendar change. Then they had to assess their students for grades for their report cards that they had to do two weeks later. That week of reporting was difficult, they had so many questions and needed a lot of clarification. It was their first time to assess students virtually which was hard to grasp. But they pulled through and did an amazing job!
Week 8 was dedicated to Virtual Student Led Conferences. As a mother doing both of my kids’ conferences, it felt like it was on another level. It was so emotional and surreal. We couldn’t wrap our heads around the fact that we were saying bye to each other and wishing each other a safe and healthy summer.
Virtual school has now ended. We were in a better place week 8 than week 1. Of course as we all know anything that you do for the first time is always bumpy and crazy. BUT our staff impressed us and we were so proud of all their hard work they put into their 8 weeks of teaching virtually.
Virtual School – Week 2!
Week 2… I was thankful for Kuwait implementing a curfew in which we had to be home by 4pm. In the mornings, I would go to the office till 3, I did all my work and meetings at school then came home. At 4pm, I started to help my kids with their work. It was so much better for me as it gave us a routine and the kids adapted to it quickly. It went a lot better than week 1.
As for my staff and meetings, I could not do what I did during week 1 and that was being in every single meeting every single day with ALL the teams. As my principal said, “You will kill yourself before you know it.” She was correct! During week 1, I barely slept and could not fall asleep. So instead, we agreed for the Grade Level Leaders to invite us to one meeting weekly. I did the beginning of the week check-ins with each team and my principal did the end of the week check-ins with all the teams. This way they got the best of both worlds. They asked their questions to begin their week with me and they asked our principal their end of the week questions they had that came during the week.
Week 2 was still a roller coaster ride for me. Between our ministry of education changing things and us coming up with a new plan according to the new rules and regulations for virtual school. We always had to plan how we would tell our staff yet another new decision that had been made. This means that what we had previously planned, no longer applied. It was tough BUT we managed. Yes, many staff had a lot of questions and many felt frustrated and annoyed. But we listened to their concerns, we answered as best we could and then we moved forward. Being in front of the screen through tough times was even harder because we couldn’t really read our staff’s reaction nor knew how they really felt. We did know that when it was silent and no one spoke or had any questions that it wasn’t a good sign nor felt right. When we asked, “is everyone ok?” they would reply with a “yes” and we took it as they were digesting what we just told them.
The minute I felt some staff needing extra support during meetings, I would message them privately and ask if they were ok and if they wanted to talk without anyone around. Gladly they did and I would answer all their questions and assured them that we were in this together and that they were doing an amazing job. Once, I sensed they were truly ok, we would end our chat or call.
Week 3 to 8….
Virtual School- Week 1!
February 24th was the last day we saw our students. Had anyone told us our life would change over night we would have definitely planned something totally different. In Kuwait February 25th & 26th are two public holidays celebrating National and Liberation Day. February 24th all private schools celebrated this event. We planned big events and then students and staff went home at 12. That was the day we had our very first corona case… That was when everything changed.
We said bye to our students and staff as we had 5 days off. But who knew that was the last time we would all be on campus and saw each other. Had we known that we wouldn’t have been returning I promise you we would have planned something different.
Next thing you know, we were informed that schools were going to be closed for 4 weeks. Hello Virtual School. Luckily we were semi prepared for this as we practiced Virtual learning through Seesaw in January. Were we fully prepared? Of course not! Were we mentally ready? Definitely not! BUT as a team we pulled through.
The first two weeks of Virtual School were overwhelming, exhausting and insane. That is how I described my first two weeks as an AP point of view and mother with two young children. The first week we were booked into virtual meetings from 8am till maybe 2pm-3pm. The amount of screen time increased and that caused me to get very little sleep and I was sitting down most of the day. There were a lot of new things that we had to get used to. Between my husband being home, him needing his own work space, to my kids having virtual school and then also needing my help, (especially my 1st grader son), to my meetings with admin or teachers… It was a roller coaster ride and trial and error for my family till we got the hang of things.
I would finish my meetings then sit with my kids and help them with their assignments. By that time I was mentally drained and had zero patience for my kids but I had to sit with my son and teach him.
Week 2…