I turned 37 in October but felt as though I turned 90 years old. I felt that everything went downhill since. Two days after turning 37, I was at the Dr’s checking why I was getting these terrible headaches. She asked me to do an X ray for my neck and it seemed that my disc moved but I hadn’t noticed. I had an MRI done and it showed the exact same thing. I then went to an orthopedic and he advised me to take some strong medications. I then decided to get the cyst on my back checked out which then lead the Dr having to remove it. I did it on the spot with 14 shots of anesthesia and 6 stitches later but I still wasn’t convinced that this was all related to my headaches. I had to stop my workouts as I couldn’t move my arms nor was I allowed to sweat because of the stitches. I then traveled for work and came back very sick. I have never in my life been absent for 5 days from work! I was forced to stay in bed as I got food poisoning and the flu. It was 2 full months of one thing happening after the other. I feel super grateful to have close friends and family who supported and checked in on me during this time.
Meanwhile I was frustrated, depressed and annoyed. Everytime I seemed to get back on track with my workouts something out of nowhere popped up. I worked out throughout the entire summer and nothing happened to me. I started believing that work/stress plus working out didn’t sit well with me. We live in a world where everything is moving so fast beyond our control. We are always rushing trying to finish things and meet deadlines and at the end of the day we are exhausted from being constantly on the go. There is no time for self care nor time to think about ourselves. I promised myself once I am healthy and back on track, that I come first.
I got on a plan for my workout. Instead of doing my workouts at 7pm twice a week, I am now doing these exercise classes at school right after work hours. My workouts at 7pm always left me feeling exhausted. Now I workout at school 3 times a week. I am trying to stick to it as much as I can but there are times where I have to cancel because of work. I am trying to do something for me, myself and I at least once a week.
2020 is the year of self care and self awareness. Applying it is so hard at times in today’s world. There are things I have been putting on hold that I am finally able to do. For one, I need to get into the habit of blogging once a week.
This is a start….
