As many of you know, when I came back after the summer holidays from Lebanon, my trainer measured me. Even after an active summer, my measurements and weight had increased. I felt defeated and felt that I would never reach that figure I have always wanted in my head.
I began to not care if I trained or not. When I would train, I wasn’t focused and my trainer would begin to lecture me. I’d listen but wouldn’t say a word. One day something flipped after chatting with a friend of mine. After our conversation, I called my nutritionist and booked an appointment.
A week later I went to see her. We sat and I updated her on everything. From my active summer, to the scale, to my measurements, and to where I was with my state of mind. She looked at me and simply said, “I want you to try this. Let’s figure out what is going on.” Of course I got the same lecture from both my trainer and nutritionist about ignoring the scale! But if you know me, then you know I am all about the scale and numbers! She went through the program that she wanted me to follow. She gave me 2 pages of what to eliminate for 3 weeks. After, I would start introducing it back to my system and see if that specific fruit or vegetable I am having is bloating me or not. It took 45 minutes to go through the 2 pages, I learned what I was supposed to eat, not eat, and she gave me replacement ideas.
I left her office nearly in tears. Why? I don’t know. I got into the car and as I was driving tears rolled down. Why? I honestly don’t know. Maybe I wasn’t ready for what she gave me? Maybe I felt that I had no choices to eat even though she gave me options. So many feelings rushed through me as I was driving. I was annoyed at the scale, my measurements, and now my visit.
I got home and messaged my nutritionist letting her know that I wasn’t going to start the next day. I knew that I would start in a few days, I just wasn’t of sure when. I needed time to digest what she had given me and mentally prepare myself.
A day passed, another day passed, 3rd day, 4th, 5th, 6th, 7th day… Did I start? Am I mentally prepared? Did I prepare myself?
More to come in my next post.
